Sometimes love just hurt that much that even how hard you're trying not to dwell over it, it will just cross your mind again and again.
Throughout the months, i've been living in misery, in roller coasters, in a mess.
My life isn't stable at all, i'm living a day by day life. Why's this so. Is it cause what i said before was right ? "Without you, my life's a mess."
We've not been contacting, we've not been talking, i didn't even look at our photos. So why am i missing you?
I wanted to tell you how much i miss you, how much i cant live without you here, but i can't. its impossible to know that we'll have a future again, but i just miss you so so much.
What do i do right now, trying so hard to smile. Instead i tear each and every night silently without anyone knowing.
My dearest heart is bleeding so hard that i can't even move on to a heart. Trying so hard, but nothing is going right either, everything seems wrong. Every small things, even phrases i would thought of you.
Why can't i just get you out of my head. :'(
It hurts so bad ..
7th June.
Out to bugis shopping with Sarah bbg and Kate girlf. Walkwalk, shopped. Met Billy brother and surprisingly saw Kim Wayne thr. :') Headed down to bella ard 12mid. Enjoyment. <3 ^^
8th June.
Bella entertainment at night my girls and billy again. ^0^
10th June.
Dinner with family then went Sarah bbg house, waited for her tgt with Kate girlf. Headed down to bella to meet the rest. :')
GOODBYE CLUB BELLA. ♥♥♥♥
