Day 4. How can i be strong without you. :'(

It's th 4th day without you baby.

Well, how am i doing ? I'm doing bad. :'(
Counselor came in the afternoon aft i just woke up a few mins, and yes i teared infront of her cus we were talking about you, and i rly missed you. :'(

Then parents came back tgt with th counselor and we talked again. i got pissed and then i cried again, i ran off to th toilet and teared it all out. i was weak, cus you weren't thr beside me. i was all alone. i had no one to turned to. no one's thr for me like you were. :'(

I didn't know what to do, all i thought was waiting for you to come out and decide w me. my mind was all messed up, i was so blanked. i can't think of what to do when you're not with me. :'(

Since you were gone, i was so weak. i teared at everything, i couldn't eat, nor could i sleep. all i had were nightmares. i miss you so much baby.
i thought i was prepared if you were to go in, i would be strong, i would spend my time relaxing and just spending time at home, and i could maple while waiting for you.

But i guess i'm wrong, whenever i see th maple icon, i thought of you, i didn't enter maple ever since you left. i couldn't do anyth. all i thought was you. :'( how much i missed you, th times we had, th daily routine we'd do.

right now, 1;57am, we'd pq in maple and i would tell you i'm hungry now. and you would be hungry too, and we'll take turns to afk and pq. baby i miss you, i miss you.


- out to th balcony to cry , can't help it but .. -

i look up in the sky, asking God to bring you back to me. I know you've to serve your sentence, but i just can't do it without you.. :'(( please come back baby..

Bebe was looking and waiting for me to come back in, then i carried him up, and i cried again, he tried to kiss me he tried to lick away my tears. this reminds me of you, whenever i cry, you'd kiss my tears and wipe it away, :'( baby, please come back ..

I need you by my side. How can i be strong without you, I need you, I'm lost without you.
I keep trying to be strong, i tell myself to be strong for us, i tell myself to survive just a few more weeks till your next court to see how is it, but i hope you won't go in again. :'(

4 days, is alr killing me, i've to wait for 3 weeks instead .. What if you're going in for the next few years, or months more.. What will i do? I'd rather suicide and get done with it. :'(

I can't do anything without you baby. Please, please come back by my side. :'(
Pleaseeeeeeee .................................... :'(


Can't help but to cry, it sucks. It feels worse then it is.
I miss you so much, and i can't do anything about it. Baby come back, :'( please come back :'(((((

Edited this picture, due to boredom.

Done this Tumblr-like photo, reminding me how sweet you were. <3

:'(

Everything's about you baby, :'(
I miss you ... :'(((


17 more days ... :"(((