Day 9. I can't live without you.

Babyboyy, it's th 9th day without you today. I'd my baptism and first communion today hunz. Well, i was hoping you could come, but you can't make it. :(
Church was from 6-11+, was dead tired alr. was holding my bladder, and starving inside :(
Had only a small bowl of beehoon noodle before going down, psk.

and my hair is so sticky aft th oil on my hair, supposed to be oily but its all tangled up even aft washing it with soap for more then 3 times . :( my poor hair . sighs .
i know baby, if you're here you would say ' it's okay, one day will be back to normal ' .
i'm dealing with it now baby, cus everything in my mind was about you.

prayed for you just now th whole time, almost tear but i now if i did i would be getting so much people attention thr. totally will be ashamed. i would be seeing you soon bby, and i'm sure i'll tear, but i'll control okay.
I won't want you to see me sad, i don't want you to worry for me inside, i'll try to be strong outside even though i'm weak here without you. so please be a good boy inside and come out soon okay. you're all that i ever wish for, for my birthday, for my present, for our anniversary, for our future baby. <3

I'm sure many would say that i can never wait for you and will end up with another guy instead, but too bad (:
i'm gonna wait for my dear hunnybunny, <3 don't forget our taiwan trip dear, got deposit one hor! got stamp alr hor! got our face thr ! they're waiting for us. ^^
We're gonna have our own 'mini ferris wheel' photo slots and our canvas framed picture.
so please come out soon dear, i can't wait to go thr w you ^^

Heheh, i don't care if you're gonna get a tagging with timing at 7pm or 5pm, as long as you're out, i'm fine with it. I can stay home to accompany you, i would go down to buy dinner for you if you're hungry, i would cook for you, especially your favorite Egg with cheese, when the first time you overnight at my place, you love it so much. hehehe. <3

Baby, the memories we had, are truly irreplaceable and unforgettable. we had our ups and downs, but afterall, it was love that brought us tight together. Somehow i rly blamed you for leaving me here all alone, :( Rmb before court what you promised and planned w me? You changed last minute, and now we're suffering. :'(

`Still, Baby, please come home soon, cus i'm missing you so much here. :'( No matter what happens, i'll be waiting for you right here. <3

Rmb these photo babyboy ? I still rmb you rushed down all the way from b.batok down to pasir ris + bus to downtown to meet me cus i wanted to go Wildwild wet. It was your first time thr, yet you tried your best to make it, even though you were late.

I didn't know you didn't like to swim, but you didn't disappoint me instead, you swam w us for awhile then you couldn't stand the water and then went to shower without us. :(

But you didn't complain despite your bad headache. You still enjoyed the company of my friends, and your fav joker my Myanmar classmate.

How much i miss you baby, i know i didn't cherish you in th past cus i wasn't sure that i rly did love you, but after all we've been through, the love we had, the times we spent tgt, were truly amazing, irreplaceable and unforgettable.

I just hope you're right beside me right now so i can hug you tight and tell you how much i love you.

We humans don't rly cherish what we have until we lost them. But baby i've lost you once, i'll never wanna loose you again dear.

Th love i have for you can never fade away, i love you Alson. :*

And from my heart, i know this is real. It's not a puppy love, it's not a teenage love, it's not a crush, it's the real love.

<3<3<3

12 more days !!!! <333333333333